To All The Boys I've Loved Before" Mayda Del Valle

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blinds are closed

1.20.09

blinds are closed

out of sorts
out of placement
out of time
out of...
my mind

memories flash back
memories reappear
memories....
o so clear

feelings linger
feelings hinder
feelings render
feelings...
get in the way

stability
tranquility
the ability to...
love me
all of me
without doubting me
without questioning me
without second guessing me

but none of you could do that
judgemental
hypocritical
belittle
made me feel...
less of myself

well no more
because...
i kno who i am
i kno who ill be
i kno what i need
and its not you
with me

its just me
in the rain
against the tears
fighting against the fears
fighting against all odds
tryin to see the light
thro my darkest nights
ill find a way
to thro away
the pain
the lonliness
the bitterness
the sadness
the thoughts
of you
and me
the former...we
something you never did see
love
that was me

para escribir [to write]

01.08.09

para escribir [to write]

scribble
scrabble
on my pad
isnt just a fad
its a love
its a gift from above
my craft
my crank shaft
i bust ballpoints
i prove points
i crack frowns...
into smiles
i bleed hearts
i shed tears
i release fears
i write
i fight
i bleed
i plant a seed
into ur mind
they say....knowledge is power
my words will take you higher
into the biggest denomination ever exsisted

i come prepared....hands fisted
pen enclosed
ready to make you...
fight again
love again
smile again
breathe again
think again
move you..
again

silently waiting....

1.5.09

silently waiting....

i long for...
kisses
hugs
stares
words...

i long for...
conversation
vacation
meanin
escapin...

i long for....
love
companionship
butterflies
tongue tied so bad i cant speak

i long for...
you
in many ways that i refuse to tell you

i just want to...
hear your laughter on the other end
see your smile
hear from you

but
as
seconds
minutes
hours
days
weeks
..and a month go by
i still have nothing

only the...
momentary chats weve shared embeded in my brain
only the...
few pictures youve sent
only the...
emails...

yet i find my heart aching to kno your whereabouts
how your feeling
how your day was
if your breathing
rather...
if your alive

you see you told me 'better communication'
and that i needed to open up
but i feel closed up now
because you
close me in now
keep me in...
the dark
and i cant see
and all i do is think
and worry
and wonder...
if your ok

i try to...be the bigger one
i try to...let go
i try to...bypass the time
i try to
but its...
achin me
hurtin me
plaguin me
that i dont kno how you are

so i send a letter out into the oblivion
when i should be callin
but i dont want to call...
because you shouldve called

weeks ago

my forever fairytale

12.27.08

my forever fairytale

i used to believe in fairy tales
like cinderella...
i would be the one to fit the glass slipper
like sleeping beauty...
my 'charming' would wake me up & we would ride away together
like jasmine
my aladdin would sweep me off into a whole new world
like the little mermaid
my prince would save me from the evil lady

thought i found...
my 'charming'
my prince
my aladdin
the one that carried the glass slipper
the love clung to my heart
never letting go
till this day...
it has a hold on me

forever floating memories
forever floating words
forever thinkin
of you
and the love that used to...
make me feel like...
cinderella
ariel
jasmine
sleeping beauty

until the harsh reality of it all
fell away
from the shell that was you
you cracked
you broke
you floated
away
like leaves blown away in the wind
i watched you slip away
walk away
drain yourself
out of me

tho youve been discarded from my life for quite sometime
an occasional butterfly floats my way
and pictures form in my mind
of someone i once knew
someone who
swept me on my magic carpet ride
carried me on a horse away from my wicked step mother
made my dream into reality
made me feel like a princess
someone
that loved me
someone
that was soley mine
someone....
that someone
was u

photographic memory

12.24.08

photographic memory

she said the...
first kiss was as best as the last
she said the...
first look is where you had me at
she said the...
first touch will always be the greatest
she said the...
first time was...
unexplainable
moved mountains
reverbarated off walls
cracked floors
unhinged pictures

first look
first touch
first kiss
first time

those became the turnin point
of us
our bubble became...
our melting pot
a place where...
our bodies & minds connected and became one
a place where...
regardless of the traffic jams in our days
we could come together
a place where...
so much energy surrounded us
that you could almost light up the city

first memories
are all i have
first memories
are all i need
first memories
are held in my scrapbooked mind
first memories
is where i leave it...
the past
behind

thinkin....

12.22.08

thinkin....

light skinned
edged up
or
curls to play in
red boned & fair face
dark eyes
subtle smile
killah swag
tender touch
swoony scent

dark skinned
dreaded
slanted...caramel eyes
easy stare
soothin voice
familiar embrace
swagga...all their own

love...
love it all
the individuality
the subtle words
the calming touch
the scent that lingers
the little things
the many things

to remember it all
is like takin a trip down memory lane
that id rather not rehash
not that its bad
not that its good
just lookin back...
has done me no good
just rehashing old feelings
old memories
old
thats all it is...
old
the former
the before
before...
the new
the future
the soon to come
of a new begining...
soon...
to come