crash & burn

10.9.08

crash & burn

it was a system overload
frame by frame
i watched the screen...flicker
fade in and out
power surge
intensity
overpowerment
the shock absortion was broken
water seeped thro the cracks
hitting the metal motherboard
causing sparks
causing disarray
causing...damage
electrical damage
infused by liquids

i knocked over the cup
spilled the coffee
onto the tower
sparks flew
smoke rose
and i panicked
broke down
...is it fixable?
i wonder
i dont want a replacement
or a refurbished piece
i want to wipe out the memory
back track
carefully
when hesitation sat in
go back to that one place
that one spot
where you mentioned a certain thing
and i would realize...
that now was not the time
now wasnt a good time
for me to be selfish
BE considerate
is what i forgot
and im sorry
that i forgot
you
while thinkin...
of me
selfishly
i abrubtly inflicted pain
made a stain
on the frame
of your heart
i apologize
so i improvise
with these words
and these phrases
like a towel clearin the stain
i want to make things better
clear away the rain for you
clear out the dark clouds in the sky for you
im sorry...
for hurting you
im sorry...
for being selfish
im sorry...
for being inconsiderate...
im clearly just...
sorry
for the mess
the overload
the crashing
the stain
im.
sorry