half empty

10.29.08

half empty

fill the void
before i pull the plug
fill the void
before i plug the hole
fill the void
before i shut the door
fill the void
before i say no more

when does the end
become the new begining
when does turning the page
make you feel better
when does the past stay the past
and leave you feeling better
when do old memories float away
and dont come back your way
when does old love leave you alone
and not become a reminder to haunt you...all day long

fragments of you
are lodged in my brain
each sad song
causes memories to float back in
each sappy love movie
causes me to frown
i thought i moved on
i thought i let go
i thought i could look pass it all...
yet i feel im still holding on
to something so wrong
something so hurtful
something so...unnecessary
something that is nothing
something that should mean nothing...
but means more than i can explain
i dont know what it is
i dont why....
that you still linger
that you still hinder...
my ability to think
my ability to blink...
clearly
for honestly...
your still around
and i still frown
at the madness
and the sadness...
that you brought to my life

now im half empty in my life
tryin to fix whats broken
tryin to mend a broken...
heart
while we space apart...us
with distance and time
eventually ill forgive
eventually ill let go
eventually i wont be bitter
eventually it wont hurt
eventually itll fade
eventually ill be ok
eventually